went to plaza sing after that to shop and watched happy feet! hahaha. so super cute! XD
haha. anyways. before that, we all did smt really stupid but fun. walked in the heavy heavy rain.. and frose to death on the bus, in the shopping centre and the cinema. stupid. hahah. but fun. i wasnt that cold and i was offering caro my jacket but some ppl didnt want to take it.. sigh. but i still frose to death in the cinema.. shivering like crap.. hahha. and the background was in antartica or smt..didnt help at all.. hahahah.
then caro became cold.. and decided to buy a jacket. i found her one. XD
so nice. i would have bought it if she wasnt buying it.. haha. its nice!
sigh. was caught in between going home or going to church to help out just now after the movie and shopping cz i forgot to ask my mum and she wouldnt allow so last min..... sigh. then in the end.. i figured they needed the help so i boldly asked. and as i expected.. she said no. sheesh. i cant stand it smt why they are so agst me going church so much. sigh. oh wwells.. at least today.....
i achieved somthing! (i was asked to do that)

I HATE MY CLASS!!
I DONT LIKE THE LETTER S !!!
SIGH!!1
I DONT LIKE.. 4 YEARS OF S CLASS!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT LIKE..>!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO APPEAL!! APPEAL! APPEAL!!
I DONT LIKE!!
I WANT TO APPEAL TO.. 3M??
APPEALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH MANNNNN. I DONT LIKE!! SIGH!!

sigh. my dad still isnt allowing me to go for camp. freak. i tried toking to him but he's still ..... argh! so annoying. sigh. but oh wells. my mum allows.. i can jz go? feel guilty all the way and everything.. and return to face the consequences.which can nv be good. sheesh. i hate decisions like these..

today was spent packing.. and shopping.. yesterday went shopping with grace(almost lost my wallet. hee. oops).. the day before.. shopping and going out..
haha
i spent alot these few days la! but got alot of things! not redundant ok! but.. new stuff! converse wallet.. 2 new jeans.. new jacket.. new....... lots of things! mann. i think i can really shop! hahahhaha. ego.

oh wells. dear caro makes me feel guilty. and joy too. and and.. everybody! mann.. so many things happening tmr. i need to have good time mangement mann. hahha. oh wells. i'll jz try to jump all over the place? hahha. key: TRY

haha. oh wells. i should get going now.. cant spent too much time on the com. tomorrow. more shopping! X)

omgomgomgomgomogmomgomgomg.
wad is your freaking prob lem!!!!??!?!?!?!
why cant you jz let me gogogoogogogoog........................................................
is it that hards to let go????
its for 5 days. 5. just fivee!!!
just cause its in malaysia. just cz you're worrying about my safety. you want me to unerstand???? no way. its so hard. are u so against me in knowing more about Him?/?? are u so prejudiced????? goodness!!!!!! its a church camp for goodness sake. nothing will happen. i know ni bu fang xing. can you just let go????????
sheesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
whywhywhywhywhywhywhwywhwyhwywhwywhwywhwwyw
you are so freaking annoying!!!
ive been looking forward to it for so long!! i was so excited i about it. ive been planning so hard for it. ive beeenn wanting to go for it so badly. look. if u dont let me go, you wont want to let me go for anymoe camps!! wthhhhH!HH!H!H!H!HH!H!H!H!H
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im so pissed im crying la................................... goooooooossssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really want to go back to camp. i dun mind the hard floor. i dun mind not having night games. i jz want to stay lonnnnngggggeeeerrrrr. mannn..
we didnt win this year's drill com.. guess we slacked too much. sigh. disapponted, yes. but i guess, its over la. im really tired. during the whole of the drill format and impromtu, i kept praying. and at that point of time when we were turning 3 times.. i saw all the horrified faces. goodness. yihui was giving me the "omg" look. after that, kat, stacey, caro and joy cried. and renne is like.. "wad.. nothings wrong wad..... " goodness. i wanted so much to break down then la.. but got so many crying alr. if i actually broke down, we wont be able to go throught e whole camp.
heehee
camp was fun. polishing boots with caro till 12+,(illegally), and went to sentosa to play with the water and sand!! oooo. so fun. hahaha. so fun going so high with joy and caro. *dingding* lol..
haha. oh wells.
anyways.. on the 2nd night, we were lying on the quadrangle floor and singing songs and stuff.. so high and fun!!! =)
went back to sch today and when i walked back up.. i wa thinking of all the times spent drilling.. and i guess.. we didnt waste the time cz friendships were earned and we were so bonded. X)
yea.. sigh. oh wells. its over . cant do anything but try harder nxt year. next year got nationals and then inter squads again.. -.-''
so not fun. have to train so hard.......... i dun like.. sheesh.
i want to sleep. goodnight ppl!!

sigh.
super tired.
went for tuition and the guuy was like.. asking questions.. and answering to himself. i was like.. *nodnodnod* hahahh. i was hearing things! not listnening! hahaha.
had a horrible night with endless nightmares. by about 5, i couldnt sleep anymore. i woke up, turned on my lights, and just read the bible. hahah. that was the only thing thgat can keeo me away from thinking of those stuff. gosh. and drill was like.. bleh. so.. im damn tired now, damn sleepy, damn pissed off with whoever is coming innto the house to view and not let me have a good 1 hour of sleeping. i caant even bathe! goodness.
sigh. i hate it. its like.. i dun even dare to sleep now. and when i wake up, i'll be all sweaty and sticky. sheeesh. cheng jie yi!!! get a grip!
ok. i guess, i hope, i pray, that i'll be fine. sigh.
went to kap today. and the whole time while eating, the 2 tables right beside us were EAVESDROPPING. gosh. we were how crappy, and they could stand the whole meal listning to guy. how wu liao can they get? i was getting so pissed off la. thank goodness they left early. i might have just raised my voice at my table and just told them: " hey, if you didnt realise, the 2 table beside us, they're actually eavedropping on us................ " then they would be just so embarrased. X)
lol..
oh wells. im super tired now la. i cant think mann.. dunno wad else to say.. hmm..
OUR DRILL LEVEL SUCKSSS!!!!!
had a showcase today, and it just showed how DISGUSTING our contingetn was. i think we're mong the bottom 2 la. sheesh. only 3 days left.. 3 days... 3!!! i only have 2. cz i'll be ponning on wed. diediedie!!
sigh. i hope they'll be gone soon. one of the guys are reading my blog behind me. think i dunno. sigh. ass man..
sigh. dunno why im suddenly so sensitive to such things. sigh. oh wells. i should watch videos to entertain myself while they're still here. hahah

ahh!!
weekends. somehow i just hate weekends. i dun like them.
no time for anything
got damn pissed the whole of today. the kids cheers me up. whee. hahha. my bro had his graduation ceremony. mann.. he's old. he's p1. hahah. sounds ironic but yea. he's old. hahah.
drill com is 1 week away!!
gosh. its freaking near. howhowhow? oh caro, everyone you mentioned is in the contingent except for the rachel. stacey say put her in but i think.. she's on standby first? wait and see. if she can manage to pull her socjks up high enough, we'll put her in. oh. i might be poning dirll on one of the days. say..wed. so sorry.
sigh. im really not thinking straight. sigh. and im getting sick. partly coz of the rain. but its damn shuang. running in the rain. whee. have tan and shuang-ness at the same time. hahaha.

"ba luo bo, ba luo bo, heyaheya, ba luo bo,
ba luo bo, ba luo bo, heyaheya, ba luo bo,
ba luo bo, ba bu dong, xiao gu niang, lai bang mang"
hahha. thats the carrot song for you. its gonna be stuck in my head for super long. now i understand why grace loves this song so much. lol.. =)

TODAY, drill was ok la..
good: suaned caro *COUGHCOUGH* so much. haha. her eyes were shining and sparkling. and.. best.. caro was BLUSHING!! hahhaa. oh wells. and the juniors were so enthu about drill.. wow. fist time. hahaha. randomly got a no from caro's phone.. and sms-ed that person. that person makes me feel that he is so "duhhh" sigh man.. i dunno la. so weird. hahaha. oh wells. caro is influencial. lol..
and then after drill.. went to mel's house. and ranted all about drill. hahaha. and suaned her too! hahah. mel!! nv knew u were so *ahAhAHEM hahaha. oh wells. give you a hint. she wanted to see a korean girl *linklink. HAHHA. nvm.
bad: only HOW MANY ppl came?? 4. plus us, then 7. sigh man. sad. how on earth are we gonna get the full contingent down like this/

sigh
i think im too tired. im thinking aloud.. and i cant concentrate enough. im like.. huhh wad?? sigh. i love mel's house. and i love her room. i dun mind sleeping there. hahaha. yeah man! nice
hahaha. i think im gonna lose my voice soon. im getting my tann! yea! nice!
mel's coming down tmr and see us drill. hahaha having breakfast too. mann.. its like.. cravings for mac's food, but no appetite. sigh mann. crazy.
oh wells. life's a contradiction. and im living with it. x)

drill's giving me too much stress. i need more social life. i realise my social circle ard guys are.. small. tiny. and guys can be entertaiing at times. hahhaa.

this blog is stagnant.

hey..
today was damn.. dunno. it kinda was alright la.. i seem to be seeing things as.. "not bad" nowadays when other ppl would just label the day as horrible. sigh man..
today, had drill. met for breakfast first at KAP. haha. MADE HANNAH TALK! its an achievement. X)X)X)
haha. alright. then had really slack drill throughout the day.. gave breaks by the hour and half hours.. this sort of thing.. and ended early.. by 3, only 3 left.
mann.. im really praying for a serious 1 day, when at least 12 ppl turns up. now.. there's about 9 regular ppl. missing 1 rank!!
sigh. then after that, i learnt in class that.. i make ppl miss my smile. HAHAHA. alrights. i cant blog now.. bye!

today.. was.. just plain awkard.. (i dun exactly want to use weird cz teng complained on her blog that her day was weird.. and i shoudl be original..)
i went to church wearing this belt i wear quite often.. and i get alot of ppl telling me that my belt is nice. compliment. ya. but.. its just weird la...
then after that, i was caught between staying back in church with nothing to do.. then tag along with my sis to orchard rd with her BF, or go for a seminar with my mum..
so.. i decided to go. for the. seminar. which i almost fell asleep in.. no.. actually, i did. i had a shut eye for like.. 1/2 min. haha. good enough. lol. oh wells. i cant say anything else already.. my eyes are drooping..........................
hahah. alrights. goodnight!

cheat my feelings!!! hmph.
oh wells. shant care about my sister here.. reading this.
i feel so tired. but i dont want to go to sleep.
i feel so exhausted. but every rest dont feel like a rest. (rests are suppose to boost your energy, so that you can feel better after that)
i feel so sick. but i dont want to take medicine. (feels like flu)
i feel like using the com. but i sit at the com, and wonder:" wad am i doing? the com is boring"
sigh man. got prob. i feel so... weird. ahahahha. oh wells. i feel like.. so out of place.
eeh! im in familiar surroundings! my home! with Gb ppl! with my family! how can???
sigh. mannnnn...
my sis is nuts. -.-''' dont think you'd like to hear wad she's talking about now.. mann.. sounds so sick.

Nobody may be there for you, but God will be there for you. Nobody can walk beside you forever, through everything. Your family, friends, are not but one part of your life. Not the whole journey. always trust and believe that He'll be there for you =)

havent posted for so long. man i miss the com. i think i havent posted for a week?
i realise i havent been home for more than 14 hours everyday. i leave at 8, come home at 7. its like.. 13 hrs at home only. and the com just refuses to work whenever im using it. sigh.
life not home has its advantages and disadvantages. everyday of the week, i come home, and hear quarrels and disturbance. and after that, mum will come and scold. scold and scold. then afterthat, ask:" why u so upset? so upset dun go for drill la!" sigh. you see the pattern? gosh. it just gets on my nerves. rennes and others in the contingent arent helping. at all. i go to school, and scream at them for goodness sake. and wad do they do after that? bitch about us. sigh. want to bitch also do it secretly rite? anyways. these guys are annoying. everyday, i only have 1/2 the contingent coming down. the other half? 2 on sabbaticals, 1 on holiday, 1 came once to prove to us that her drill sucks, and make us agree to put her as a reserve, and last 2, nobody knows their existance. mann.. this suckcs.
rules for them
1. lock your arms!
2. clench your fist!
3. STAMP! dont horsekick
4. dont look down! not like the floor is very fascinating.
5. pay attention!

5 simple rules. have to repeat over and over again.
lunch: people dont know how to eat properly. like got hole in their mouth.
hahahahhahah. like cassie. oops. u didnt see that. ahahaha.
anyways, had flagday today. this lady, alice, told us that we can go anywhere in singapore.
then we were like ok. *walks to dhoby gaut mrt station. then another irritating lady: amy,
came and tell us to go back. and scolding and scolding and lecturing us all the way.
like wad did we do wrong? ok fine.
so we stood across the road. outside somerset mrt station. and like a parrot,
repeat and repeat: " hi, would you like to donate to the hiding place?"
hahaha. man.. it was fun but tiring.
but knowing that others are in it as well, makes me feel better.
you see ppl daoing you, being nice to you, laughing at you, etc. you see all sorts of ppl.
this sort of thing are quite entertaining.
at least im not at school or maris stella, p1 orientation. haha.
oh. and one new fact: Mg girls are always LATE.
me and caro were freaking out that we will be late...
by the time we got tehre, we thought we were damn late. then when we look around, no Mg girl.
EVERYBODY was late. mannn.. Mg girls: late ppl. sigh.
my can was heavy! it was the heaviest among the 3 of us. caro, cassie, and me! whee! i took the people b4 caro, so she got less than me. and cassie also took the ppl b4 caro, so caro got the least. cassie was wearing a fake smile, and i was ranting away at wad on earth was the Hiding Place. which half the world didnt know. the starbucks was so tempting. and i wanted an icecream instead of a newspaper man behind me. but all in all, it was fine. not bad. kinda had fun. =)
long post to compensate for the 1 week of no post at all. hahaha. the blog was stagnent for 1 week. sad. ahhaha. oh wells. have fun guys! happy holidays! =)